Updated: Oct 15, 2020
On showing up and unpacking —
Do you know what it's like to move? Whether that is moving into a new apartment, a new city, or to just physically move. It is an action taken by force when you decide that you need to change your current state of being. Now with moving, you generally associate that with unpacking your things to settle into your new space.
You probably placed your most valuable items in bubble wrap, news paper or through layers of sheets for safe keeping. For myself, about seven years ago, that is exactly what my family and I did when we moved out of my childhood home.
The move itself? Bitter. Unhappy to say the least. I thought that my family had been slighted or even worse...that God was no longer coming through for us. In a years time I had gone from graduating high school to now packing up all of my prized memories to be hidden in storage.
What was meant to be temporary turned into seven years. Seven whole years of change, separation, growth and now unpacking.
Friends, when we think of unpacking we have to look outside of the normal cutting open of boxes and exploring old memories. I have to admit that I got caught up when we recently started going through our storage unit. Faced in front of me was every aspect of our old house. Books, furniture, bedding, light fixtures, vases and anything that made up the image of what once was. In those moments, I began to think and honestly get a little emotional at how far away those days are.
At 26, my version of unpacking is allowing myself to let go of the old and set deeply into the present (bet you thought I would say the new). I am allowing myself to process emotions that, if I do not allow God to free me from, would hold me hostage in what he holds for my future. So many of the memories come with sweet and sour moments, but moments that have gotten me to where I am today nonetheless.
So that is when I decided that Cydney had to show up for Cydney the way that God intended.
No matter who left, what we lost or who chose not to show up.
It’s okay when you feel slighted, cheated, left behind, forgotten about and whatever else happens when the rain comes. Remember this, do not sit in that space for too long. In doing so, you allow those feelings to harbor down and create a home where good fruit should be reaped. Remember this too, whatever loss you took, God will restore what you lost ten fold and he is in the business of preparing tables that you can’t even dream of having a seat at or building yourself. That’s just how good He is and He has not forgotten. So no matter how bad they hurt you, he played you, how mad she made you, keep it moving in love — not for them, but for you and the relationship you’re building with Him.
So when you're on the go, remember these things when you have to show up for yourself:
Luke 1:37 "For no word from God will ever fail."
Deuteronomy 30:3-13 "God, your God, will restore everything you lost; he'll have compassion on you; he'll come back and pick up the pieces from all the places where you were scattered." [He’ll return back to you more than you lost]
Ephesians 3:20 "Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us."